Things that make you go hmmm.....

You ever stop and look at where life has taken you and say... Hmmm.....  Well that was a pleasant surprise!  Today I was asked if I was happy, and for the first time in a long time, I was completely honest when I said yes.  I wasn't merely content...  I was, and am, truly and completely happy.  I finally feel as though I am where I am supposed to be.  In the arms of the woman I love.  It's odd to think that we have only been together for a year and yet we already fit together like a pair of bookends.  It made me think about how much different it felt two years ago.  How incomplete I let myself get, how unfinished... but now, I feel as though my heart is singing all the time and it's a beautiful thing.

As always, I close this with a big hug and kiss to my dad.  I love you and hope you're having a good day.

I know. I publish rarely anymore. Life is what happens while you're busy making other plans I suppose. Just thought I would pop in and say that I am still alive and kicking. That is the best that any of us can hope for. Anyway I will check in from time to time as often as I can.


As always, I love you dad.

Sleepy.............

Ok, first cup of coffee in almost a week is almost gone and I still can't wake up.   I hate being tired all the time!  I can't wait to get the hell out of this god forsaken burg of a town...   I am excited and scared of moving to such a large city, like Atlanta, but I suppose after a while, I'll get used to it.  Plus I'll have an excellent guide!  LOLOL  Anyway, just thought I would pop in and say, "I haven't forgotten about you all, the three or four of you all who read this, but I am forgetful, and I'm sure you know that.  Plus I  have been ill for the past week, first with a fever, then with an allergic drug reaction to something they gave me at the hospital.  Fun, fun, fun.  I hate being itchy everywhere."

 As always, daddy, I love you, and I hope you're having a good day!  Bye all! *waves heartily*

New Netbook!!!

I got my new netbook yesterday! I am super excited!! I love it, but it is going to take some getting used to. Smaller keyboard and no mouse.... Definitely different then the desktops I am used to, but it's a good change. And this one is portable so I don't have to hunch over in that uncomfotrable chair anymore. Yay!!! *does a happy dance from her comfy seat on the couch* I think I am in love with this machine!! LOL The screen is amazingly crisp and clear, the web cam on it is better than my other one, the graphics are phenominal... It is an all around great comp. It's an HP mini 210 in basic black. This thing is so small I can carry it in my purse!!!! LOL

Anyway, I love you daddy. I hope you are having a good day.

Life is Rough.....

.... But with every dark cloud comes a silver lining. Tim and I are getting Divorced... Sad, but necessary. He thinks it isn't hard on me, but he is very wrong. I feel lost most of the time, very alone... But I have met a wonderful woman, and we have become an item. I know that this is unorthodox, and some people will probably be rather upset with me over it, but what these people must understand is that she makes me happy in a way I haven't been in quite some time. I regret deeply the loss of what Tim and I had, but there is the key word in all of this... Had. In many ways, he was the other part of me that I felt I had been missing, but he was either unwilling or unable to meet me halfway, and in a marriage, everything should be a partnership. I watched what happens when a marriage is not a partnership when I was growing up, and I will be damned if I am going to put my kids through what I went through.... The fighting, the deceit, the philandering... I will not do that to them.

Tim will never understand why I couldn't take it anymore, but I know that if I were to have continued in the path I was on, I would have been spent in a matter of months. And nothing I could have done would have set things right. So I took the only path I could to remain vital and alive. I will always care for him, and about him, and I hope he knows this, I just cannot be anything more than his friend. I hope that he focuses on the good times and not the bad. And I hope, for his sake, he continues on the path he's been following, getting himself straight. I will always love him, and nothing will change that, but that is where it must stop. I hope he gets a chance to read this. It may give him some insight.

As always, Daddy. I love you, and I hope your day is going well.

Anniversaries...

So....... I have returned from the dark side with more tales to tell. Tim and I just celebrated our 3rd anniversary of the day we met. That was yesterday. 3 whole years that we have been together. Joys and sorrows, bad times and good. And come May, we will have been "official" for a whole year. Funny, when you think about how long it feels like we've been together. We're like two halves of the same whole, him and I. Isn't that how it's supposed to be when you've the one? I think it is and that's all that matters, right? Anywho, just thought I'd share that with you three.

I love you, Daddy As always, I hope you're having a great day!

I am horrible, aren't I?

I know, I know. I don't post nearly often enough to make the cut as "Blogger of the year" but what my blog lacks in frequency, it shall make up for in content.

*AHEM* I have an announcement... Well, a couple actually. First: I may be returning to school. Soon. For those of you who don't know, I went crazy last year. Lost my flipping marbles... Found almost all of them, and am still here... But I think I might be ready to go back to school. I still have to discuss it with my counselor, of course, but if he agrees with me that I might be ready, I may be starting as soon as this next quarter. Won't that be exciting?

Second: We have a new addition to the family.(See above) His name is "Bug" and he is a 5 month old black and white(tuxedo) cat. Adorable animal. Playful, cuddly... Everything you'd want in a kitten. I went and picked him up this morning and have never been happier to get up at 6 am in my life.

So anyway, I think that pretty much sums it up. I just thought I would let you three know, and you know who you are, as you are the ones in my life I know I can always count on to be there if I feel myself teetering on the edge of another breakdown. I love you all.

My love to you, daddy. I hope you are having a blessed day!