Sleepy.............

Ok, first cup of coffee in almost a week is almost gone and I still can't wake up.   I hate being tired all the time!  I can't wait to get the hell out of this god forsaken burg of a town...   I am excited and scared of moving to such a large city, like Atlanta, but I suppose after a while, I'll get used to it.  Plus I'll have an excellent guide!  LOLOL  Anyway, just thought I would pop in and say, "I haven't forgotten about you all, the three or four of you all who read this, but I am forgetful, and I'm sure you know that.  Plus I  have been ill for the past week, first with a fever, then with an allergic drug reaction to something they gave me at the hospital.  Fun, fun, fun.  I hate being itchy everywhere."

 As always, daddy, I love you, and I hope you're having a good day!  Bye all! *waves heartily*

New Netbook!!!

I got my new netbook yesterday! I am super excited!! I love it, but it is going to take some getting used to. Smaller keyboard and no mouse.... Definitely different then the desktops I am used to, but it's a good change. And this one is portable so I don't have to hunch over in that uncomfotrable chair anymore. Yay!!! *does a happy dance from her comfy seat on the couch* I think I am in love with this machine!! LOL The screen is amazingly crisp and clear, the web cam on it is better than my other one, the graphics are phenominal... It is an all around great comp. It's an HP mini 210 in basic black. This thing is so small I can carry it in my purse!!!! LOL

Anyway, I love you daddy. I hope you are having a good day.

Life is Rough.....

.... But with every dark cloud comes a silver lining. Tim and I are getting Divorced... Sad, but necessary. He thinks it isn't hard on me, but he is very wrong. I feel lost most of the time, very alone... But I have met a wonderful woman, and we have become an item. I know that this is unorthodox, and some people will probably be rather upset with me over it, but what these people must understand is that she makes me happy in a way I haven't been in quite some time. I regret deeply the loss of what Tim and I had, but there is the key word in all of this... Had. In many ways, he was the other part of me that I felt I had been missing, but he was either unwilling or unable to meet me halfway, and in a marriage, everything should be a partnership. I watched what happens when a marriage is not a partnership when I was growing up, and I will be damned if I am going to put my kids through what I went through.... The fighting, the deceit, the philandering... I will not do that to them.

Tim will never understand why I couldn't take it anymore, but I know that if I were to have continued in the path I was on, I would have been spent in a matter of months. And nothing I could have done would have set things right. So I took the only path I could to remain vital and alive. I will always care for him, and about him, and I hope he knows this, I just cannot be anything more than his friend. I hope that he focuses on the good times and not the bad. And I hope, for his sake, he continues on the path he's been following, getting himself straight. I will always love him, and nothing will change that, but that is where it must stop. I hope he gets a chance to read this. It may give him some insight.

As always, Daddy. I love you, and I hope your day is going well.